Monday, October 27, 2008
A frustrating season...
I'm sure feeling like giving up today...lol!
I'm in such a strange season in my life. I don't really know how to explain it. All I can say is it's frustrating. I've been dealing with the same issue for over 2 years. Most of my friends know just because it is such a huge part of my life, but I'll spare the details here and just say, it's been rough.
I've searched for answers, and so far I feel like there is no great reason. I guess I have to wait it out, ride the waves, and just go with it. No other option. I do, however, need some sort of comfort. Last night, for the first time ever, I skipped communion. I have so much unforgivness floating around in my heart that I couldn't take it. I just sat there, heavy hearted, with a huge lump in my throat. That is so unlike me. But how can I forgive something that just keeps going and going? I don't know. I feel like this whole thing is out of control, and there is nothing I can do about it. Maybe that is the lesson.
So what is a girl to do when there is nothing left? Find the promises that her Father wrote to her for times like these...
The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.
The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war rise up against me, yet I will be confident. Psalm 27:1,3
When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears, and rescues them from all their troubles. Psalm 34:17
Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe. I long to dwell in your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of your wings. Psalm 61:1-4
The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth. He fulfills the desires of those who fear him; he hears their cry and saves them.
Psalm 145: 18-19
Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For I am the Lord you God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. Isaiah 43:1b-3a
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.
2 Corinthians 12:9
Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. Exodus 14:13a,14
The Lord is my light and my salvation -- whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life -- of whom shall I be afraid? Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then will I be confident. One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock.